Numbness

Do you ever have the feeling where you are completely numb?

You go through your entire day not caring about a single thing. You try to put a smile on your face and be happy but deep down inside you feel absolutely nothing. Lately this is what I've been feeling. I'm so drained from the stress of life that I don't care about anything that used to be so important to me. As I've been feeling this I decided to talk to one of my close friends about this feeling. She shared that she had been feeling the same way. I'm not alone feeling this way. I asked her how she copes with the depressing feeling. She said she tries to find one thing every day that makes her happy. I tried doing this and surprisingly it helped.


You may go through times in you life where you're going to feel hopeless and numb, but the main thing is that you cannot give up. Giving up gives power to your depression and, girl, you are so much better than that! You have a purpose in life. You may not know what it is now (cuz I really have no idea what mine is) but you will one day. There is purpose around you everywhere you look. If you find something you are somewhat passionate about, you can definitely use your passion to help others. BAM right there can be one of your purposes in life.

Family Matters

Many teenagers today are basically taught to hate their parents and family. Who wants to have controlling parents? Why should we listen to them? These questions go through every single teenagers head. Me too. Growing up I constantly thought I knew more than my parents. Why would they try to ruin all of my fun, when I'm just trying out new things?

Now I am 19 and living on my own. I rarely get to see my family, and sometimes I do get lonely. Lately my entire attitude about family and parents have changed. I'm actually realizing that my parents did not best all of these years. Yes, it may have been a downer not being able to do specific things growing up, but now that I'm an adult and making my own decisions I just want to have my parents straight up tell me what I have to do. Does that every happen? No. I have to make my own decisions.

As I get older, I've come to respect my parents and their opinions. And I also have realized that they are smarter than me and do understand what I am going through. All parents were our age once. The situations may have been different, but they were all once teenagers. So next time you are ready to fight or argue with your parents, just sit back and think.

Appreciation

This past week my grandpa passed away, and it really opened up my eyes and made me realize that our lives here on earth are so short. We never know when God may call us home. I want to let everyone in my life know how much I appreciate them. Life is so short, so why waste time hating people and pushing people away. Forget about the haters and focus on those that you love and care about. There is no telling when they will not be in your life anymore. Cherish every moment with your loved ones.

Size Doesn't Define Us

During our teens, there is such a huge deal about our weight and size. Society basically makes you feel that unless you are a specific size or weigh a certain amount your not beautiful. They constantly tell us that no guy will ever like us if we don't have the most perfect body. It makes me so sad when i see girls fall prey to the lies that society tells them. As cliche as it may sound that size doesn't matter, size really doesn't. I've talked to guys about this before. Every guy is different. Not all guys want the size 0 girls. They are just like girls. Not all girls want a guy who has a specific type of body. Every single guy is different. And the right guy doesn't care about your body. They care about your personality and who you are as a person.

Your size and weight does not define who you are. How you treat people and talk to people is what defines you. I know it is difficult to remember this and believe this. Trust me, I have to remind myself everyday that I'm perfect just the way I am. But you will soon realize that once you are happy with how you are it doesn't even matter what other people think. Once you are happy with yourself, you will not only feel better, but others will be able to see the confidence that you have.

Overcoming Obstacles

Whats your passion in life?

I've been asking myself this for the past few weeks. Honestly I have no idea. I have things that I enjoy doing, but nothing I am passionate about. I've been praying and searching for my purpose in life. I see so many people doing things that they absolutely love, and then theres me.... I have no idea what I am going to school for, let alone what I even enjoy doing.

Whenever I find something I'm passionate about there always seems to be so many obstacles for me to overcome to finally accomplish something. That can be very depressing and discouraging.

Today I had you can say almost a revelation. I've realized that if I want to accomplish something I'm passionate about, I can't give up when the first obstacle comes. In order for me to accomplish anything amazing in life I am going to have to work hard at it.

Humbling Yourself

One thing I've struggled with lately is humbling myself. I currently live on my own and have to take care of myself completely. I have to pay all my bills and basically care for myself. Having done this for nearly a year it is very hard to ask for help. Recently I've realize that it is not wrong or bad to ask for help when you need it. I am just human and can't accomplish everything and be perfect at everything. I'm going to need help once in awhile. The worst thing that can happen when you ask for help is the person you ask to say no. Nothing really changes. So yes, this post may seem stupid to some, but I wanted to share with some personal struggles that I've been going through.

Where has the Time Gone?

Christmas is in exactly one week away. I have no idea where the time has gone! I remember when I was little it felt like eternity until Christmas was here. I would start counting down the days in July for when Christmas would come. Now it sneaks up and its so unexpected. Nothing is ready for Christmas and its already a week away.  While I was thinking about this, I realized that I am not getting any younger and time will continue to go by fast, and I don't want to miss out on something amazing.

We all have goals and things we want to achieve in life, but like everyone else I love to procrastinate. I put off all of my goals. At the beginning of every year when I make my New Year resolutions, I always have such huge plans for the upcoming year. But once the year starts I begin to procrastinate all of the amazing things I had planned. I just push them aside and tell myself maybe next week I'll work on that. Sooner than I know, its already the end of the year and all of the goals that I made at the beginning of 2015 have been left untouched. 

Another thing I've realized about time is that we don't appreciate the people in our lives enough. A little over a year ago, my grandma passed away... I hadn't seen her for over a year before she died. Now that she's gone, I've realized that I put it off for way too long to see the people I care about and actually take time out of my day to spend even a little bit of time with them. 

So all I can say is that time is passing quickly by and none of us are getting any younger. We should pursue our goals and not push them aside for late. And most important spend time with your loved ones today. Don't wait until its too late.

What is True Beauty?

So now that finals are quickly approaching then after that, I'll be on my winter break from school for over a month, I thought I should start blogging again! :D I'm so excited to be writing some more. I've missed talking to you all so much!

Lately I had to write an argumentative paper for my college English class. I could choose the topic and I chose girl's self-esteem. Yes, I know this is a very very deep subject for an English class, but I'm super passionate about helping young girls that even in my English class I wanted to share it. As I began writing, it took me barely an hour to write a 5 1/2 page paper because I had so much I wanted to say and share. Now I won't type up my entire paper for you all, but I do wanna share some of the key details I did write about, that I think is extremely important.

Years ago when Marilyn Monroe was alive and a model, she was considered beautiful. Even though she had curves and maybe not the "picture perfect" body, she was still beautiful. If that was true then, why does it have to change now. Society has tried to change everyone's outlook on true beauty. Personally I think everyone is beautiful and I'm definitely not just saying it. I've never seen an ugly girl in my life. To me it doesn't matter if you are super thing or if you are curvy. Everyone was made different but we all are beautiful. Just because we do not look like the celebrities we see in magazines, doesn't mean that we aren't beautiful. And guess what?! The models in those magazines don't even look like that. While I was researching information for my paper I cam across an interview with a celebrity and she shared that she had to talk herself up in the morning, constantly reminding herself that she was gorgeous. Society puts celebrities on a pedestal, but in reality they are just like you and me. I know it is a lot of work to be completely happy in yourself and how you look. Trust me I know. I'm still struggling with it. But something I have to remind myself is that it doesn't matter what other people think. I need to stop comparing myself to others. If I am happy with how I am, that is all that matters. Me comparing myself to others realizing I'm not as fit as another girl is not going to help me in any way. Its just going to bring me down. So to answer the question what is true beauty? Its you girls. All of you are true beauty!

Challenge of the day: Compliment another girl today! I feel like us girls don't compliment each other enough. Now don't go say ooooh I love your shoes (that is a great compliment) but say something like you look super pretty today. Say something positive to the girls around you. We need to bring each other up!

Catching Up

I know its been such a long time since I've posted. Like 6 months.... I can't promise that I'm going to post regularly, but I want to start posting more. So much has been changing in my life since I last posted. I am now graduated and started college.

Nothing actually too new and exciting in my life. But I am going to college and struggling actually a lot with it. But of course I have to expect that college will be extremely harder than highschool. One thing I have learned about college is that the people there are so much different than those in highschool. Personally I feel like the students there are more mature, than the kids I left in highschool. Obviously I'm not a pro at college, since I'm still in my first semester, but if any of you guys ever have any questions or need advice about college, I will be more than happy to start a college type of series! :)

I started a journal type blog where I share my thoughts!

Check it out

http://thoughtsofacollegegirl1.blogspot.com/

Finding Mr. Right

As teen girls we are also wondering when we will meet "Mr. Right." Is he the kid that lives next door? Or is he the guy that you ran into while you were buying groceries? We really don't know when Mr. Right will just pop into our lives. Maybe he is already in your life and you just don't know it yet. 

I understand it is so hard to be happy and waiting for the right guy to come along when all of your friends have boyfriends, and you are sitting here saying that your waiting for some special guy. And to be honest I don't have an answer on how to get rid of the feeling of loneliness when your around a bunch of couples. Lately I've been feeling super down about not having a special someone. I really want to be able to be content being single and not having someone at the moment. I want to be able to trust God and allow him to bring a special man into my life when the time is right. God does always knows the exact time that someone should enter your life. 

You Have to Let it Go

Something that I really struggle with is holding grudges and not letting things go. When someone says something that hurts me or makes me super upset, I hold it against them. The other day I was thinking back to things that have happened when I was like 12, and I realized I am still holding grudges to things that happened to me 6 years ago. I just can't seem to let the things go. 

In Ephesians 4:31-32 it says "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you."

I haven't completed been able to let everything go, and it definitely is going to be a process for me, but in this verse it says God forgave us. We have done so many horrible things to him, and yet he still forgives us and loves us. If God can forgive us, we should be able to forgive one another. 

Did You Hear?

As teen girls we all have to struggle with gossiping. Whether you are the one that is telling everyone all about the latest news about someone's family, someone is coming to you to tell you the latest news, or people are talking all about you and your personal life. As humans we all have to struggle with getting into other people's business. Women more than men sadly struggle with this more. I never realized the harm that gossiping could do to people or even how it made people feel until people were gossiping about me. Rumors have quickly spread at a place that I work that I was pregnant and just so many other stupid lies. People would look at me with disgust when I would walk past and I would have no clue what I had ever done to them. I would slowly hear about things people were saying about me, and let me tell you, it hurt really bad. The people that I called my friends ended up being back stabbers. Things that I thought were confidential, so many people ended up knowing. Now I am definitely not saying that I am perfect and have never said one thing negative about a person. I have to admit that I have, but I am working so hard not to. If you struggle with this, one thing that I find very helpful is to think about what I'm going to say before I start talking. Is what I'm going to say about any people that is with me at the moment? If not then I should probably not be talking about it. Is what I'm going to say going to hurt someone if they knew what I was saying? If yes, well you should probably not say it. These two questions really can even out whether you should be talking about it or not. So the next time your ready to say something about someone, put yourself in their shoes. Would you want someone to say this about you?

Childhood to Adulthood

Remember when you were little and all you wanted to do is be grown up? You wanted to be able to drive, have a job, and just be an adult. Now that I am 18 and adulthood is fastly aproaching, I regret spending most of my life wishing I was older. Now I wish I was that five year old that didn't have a care in the world. You didn't have to worry about how much money gas would be to go places. You would have to worry about which friend was a true friend, and which one was fake. You just could be a happy child and play. As I am growing up, I realize that I need to cherish the times that I have. Time goes by so quickly and if I spend my entire life wishing for something that I don't have, or wanting a life I don't have, everything will just be gone in a second. Slowly I am learning that I need to be thankful for where I am in life, and just live life. I shouldn't sit here and be worried about the future because it is in God's hands. He's in control over everything.

Handling Our Feelings

As humans we always seem to make our decision based on feelings. If we don't feel like talking to someone we won't. If we don't feel like doing something we don't do it. Feelings are not a bad thing, its good to have feelings. Its how we react to the feelings whether its good or bad. Its good that we have feelings, but we can't base our doings with how we "feel." We need to base them on the Bible. If someone was mad at someone and felt like killing a person would that be okay? No it wouldn't, because the Bible says that you shouldn't kill.

Some people have had things happen in their past that makes them react negatively to all the bad feelings that they have. It is good to always have a way to let those feelings out. Whether its journaling, working out, blogging, etc., you need to be able to let out your negative feelings. If we don't have a way to let out our feelings, all of those negative feelings will begin to pile up until you can't hold it in any longer and you end up lashing out at someone that you don't want to. Also another way I've found helpful is talking to people about what your feeling. Sometimes just saying it out loud helps. If you ever want to talk feel free to email me, I am always here for you guys! (agirlaftergodsheart@gmail.com)

You Can Do It!

The first semester of school has just passed and well, I'm sure all of you (including me) just wants summer to come so you can be done with school and not have to do all of this studying and try to keep your grades up. Well this is just going to be a little encouraging post that YOU CAN DO IT! I know school is long, hard, and sometimes even boring, but what I try to think about when I stressing myself out is that once I'm done with school, I can go to college if I want or I can go and get a job and I won't have to do school again. School is apart of growing up. Its something that you just have to do. So put your head up you have one more semester left of school than 3 months of break!! :D